As I have surpassed the first month of my study abroad and
with all of my trials and tribulations I have come to realize that once you
find your true friends and the love of your family it is hard to not see them
or speak to all of them. I have come to
admire and realize how blessed I am to have met my best friends at Maryville
College. I have seen all sides of them
as I am sure they have seen all of my sides (which aren’t too pretty). I have come to realize that Studying abroad
takes courage and strength that I never knew I had. It starts out as an adventure, but quickly
becomes your life. I have also come to
realize that even when you are 3000 plus miles away life goes on for your
friends and family. This has hit me
hard, when I realize what I am missing back home. Such as helping my best friend plan her
upcoming wedding, my friends games, birthdays, school events that I never miss,
and of course just the closeness of my friends.
It hits me hard to realize that I won’t see my best friend walk down the
aisle to her soulmate and watch her walk across the stage for her diploma, or
celebrate my best friend’s (other best friend) 21st birthday, Miss
baseball games that my friends are playing in and watching them with my best
friend, and missing my Mom’s birthday and Mother’s Day. These are hitting home for me on this
trip. I know that my friends and family
love me in my heart, but my mind is just not on that wavelength yet. Some of the places that I visit I can’t help
but wonder or think you know who would love to see this, or I wish so and so
was here to visit this place with me.
When comparing my situation to others here in this program I think I am
just a loner and don’t want to be. I am
one of the only one who did not come with someone they knew before-hand. I have
met some awesome people here don’t get me wrong, but most are here to go out every
night and party it seems. Also all most
of them can talk about is their family, boyfriends, or friends coming to visit
and it leaves me in the slot of well I’m here by myself for 3 months and
probably won’t get to see some of my friends for 2 or 4 more months after
that. As much as I like my experience so
far I am seriously on an emotional roller-coaster and I am not use to
this. I can’t wait to see all of my
friends again. I feel like a piece of me is missing when I can’t just call them
or text them to hang out or even be in the same time-zone.
Sorry for such an emotional blog, but I would rather be
truthful instead of spinning a tale.
I have had a few good trips this last week we went to the ruins here in Milan and
then found an awesome park, got lost then made it to the Duomo to see the
craziness. I also have found the best gelato flavor ever! Its Cinnamon
flavored. Anyone who knows me knows how much I love cinnamon!
On other note I hear a congratulations are in order for The
Lady Scots Softball team and Coach for her first career sweep. Congratulations
Ladies! Also to all the Scots from
sports to theater to graduates Congratulations and Go Scots!
Ciao Amici!
Vi Amo Tutti!